The Time Was Already Short...And it Just Got Shorter

The time I have left with my almost missionary is getting shorter and shorter everyday. But it was just recently cut much shorter than was expected and then I want it to be! I originally thought that I would be spending almost everyday with him up until he leaves, but yesterday that hope was crushed! For starters he just started working at his old job to earn a little bit of extra money for his mission, which is a good thing but now he will be working 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. That shortened my time. AND it was planned that when I go back to California next week for my moms wedding he would come with me. But that got shot down when his bishop said that he needed to stay here and go to the temple a lot and get in the right mind set for his mission. So basically I'm not too happy with his bishop right now! So that is a WHOLE week out of the 18 days he has left that I wont get to see him, I wont even be in the same state! And to top it all off, his last week here he will be in Provo and I will be in Layton with my dad. And who knows how often I will be able to see him that week. So its safe to say that I am sad, angry, frustrated and disappointed at this point. :(

There are times when I just wish that he would leave sooner, just so my wait can officially start and he can come home sooner. But I do know that it is important to make the best out of the time we do still have left together, no matter how short that time is. Many other MG's have told me that the waiting to wait is the hardest part. And boy do I believe it!! I didn't realize that this part would be this hard! But I am hoping that because this part is so hard that the rest of this journey wont seem as bad as the beginning. I know that the first few months he is gone are going to be very hard, and will take a lot of getting used to, but it will be so worth it. And time will actually pass even when it seems like its not. I am trying so hard to be positive about everything, but right now even that seems difficult. I pray for guidance and strength to get me through this journey from beginning to end, and learning and growing a lot on the way.

Missionary Bear!!!

Yesterday was so amazing! :) So I have wanted a missionary bear ever since my soon-to-be mish got his call, and yesterday it finally happened! And to make it even better...it was a total surprise! :D So this is what happened...

Yesterday Dakota and I decided to go to the mall. He told me there was something he wanted to look for in GameStop (not my favorite store) he knew that I wasn't the biggest fan of that store so he told me to go ahead and shop around in the stores I wanted to and he would meet up with me when he was done. So off he went and off I went. And we just happened to be in the mall that had a Build-a-Bear which also sold the missionary outfits (yes we are in Utah lol) And while I was shopping I was secretly hoping that he would make me one and surprise me with it, but I didn't get my hopes up. So after a while he called me to ask where I was. I told him that I was just waiting in line to check out and that I would be done in a few minuets. So I walk out if the store and he called me again because he couldn't fine me lol! So he walks up to me holding something behind his back and says "I have a surprise for you!" I got really excited!! He then hands me the birth certificate from Build-a-Bear! I was SO happy!!! Then we went and sat on a couch so he could take the bear out of the box to show me!

 

Cutest bear EVER!

 

I could not stop smiling!!! He then showed me that he put a voice recording in it so that whenever I miss his voice I can hear it though my bear! So when I squeeze its hand in his voice it says "I love you Princess and I'll see you soon!" At this point I was trying to hold back tears of joy! :')

 

 

 

Love this little guy! <3

 

Now, when Dakota leaves little Elder Crisp here (the bear) will be my cuddle, hugging, kissing, crying and "anything else I would normally do with Dakota" partner! haha :) And I think its safe to say that I will be one of those girls that is overly attached to my bear! And I don't even care!

 

 

 

I love Dakota so much! And I am so thankful that he listens to me and thinks of my needs, and what will be of comfort to me while he is faithfully serving the Lord and the people in the Philippines for 2 years! The wait may be hard at times but it will be so worth it! I am so in love!!! <3

 

39 days until he leaves.